Six months. Half a year. When I think about it, the emotions are all a jumble. I look at him and see how very much different he was from when he was born. He is no more a helpless newborn but now a curious infant. He is no longer entirely dependent on me but rather on a quest to discover every little thing in the world. I am nostalgic of those days that I am enough for him. Yet I am excited for him to know more and more about the world. I look forward to the games we can play together and a bit of the mischief he might do or the wisdom he can share or the funny things he will say. I am imagining the time when we jump for pictures together already. I look forward to all the memories we will make as a family.
My dearest Alon, I did not expect you to arrive on July 4! I even came to work in the morning though I was already having contractions but I didn't know I was having them. Silly me! I thought it was just Braxton-Hicks so I walked and rode a jeep and went up and down the stairs. The pain, however, was getting more intense which made me realize that it may be time to go to the hospital already. It's funny though. People around me were panicking more than I was. Thank God for those lamaze classes your Tatay and I took that I was calm through out.
I got admitted to the hospital at 1:30PM. By 6:07PM you were out. I gave birth au naturelle! No anaesthesia. Something I am really proud to have achieved. So you, little boy, do not have the right to complain much when you skin a knee or bump your head because I know what pain is like. And you, being a boy, will never ever experience that. So yeah, skinned a knee? Clean with running water and soap and you'll be fine. No need to wail or whine. :)
You scared me your first few days. You got an extreme case of jaundice and had to be admitted to the Neonatal Intensive Care Unit. I had to stop breastfeeding you because breastmilk made it worse. There was even a time when your doctor told us that if your bilirubin levels did not go down, we would have to do blood transfusion. How I stormed the heavens when I found that out. And God is good! You got better and better each day until finally they let me breastfeed you again and you were back in regular care. After a week in the hospital, we could already go home.
But what happened got me a little paranoid. I was afraid that every little thing I do would hurt you even if your pedia told us that babies are actually hard to hurt (not that I would ever ever want to do that!). It took a while for me to get my groove, but eventually I felt better as a mother and had less fear of taking care of you.
By the second month, you could already lift your head and smile and suck your entire fist. Like most babies, you wanted to be fed every couple of hours. But you slept much longer and more comfortable if I was your bed. This was perfectly fine by me. I get to sleep longer and I get to cuddle you too!
I have to say, you had this absolutely funny looking poopy face. You'd stick out your tongue, groan and shiver a bit. I actually miss that face. :PI have to say, you had this absolutely funny looking poopy face. You'd stick out your tongue, groan and shiver a bit. I actually miss that face. :P
By your third month, most of your hair fell off. I was happy to see you had a bit of hair when I gave birth to you. Imagine my horror that every time I check your sheets, I'd see little fuzz on them and less on your head! But I guess it must be my family's genes working on you. Many of our boys have high foreheads... if you catch my drift. :P
You were also laughing a lot already and doing funny faces and sounds. You liked to stand up, not by yourself of course. You enjoyed listening to the stories I read and actually liked holding the books yourself. Your eyes focused more on the letters than on the pictures but that could be because you still preferred black to colors.
By the fourth month, you were already an expert with finger sucking. Thank God your pedia encouraged it because it helped you sleep longer and better (which also means I get to sleep more too). .You enjoyed being on your tummy and worked a lot on your mini-push ups. You were starting to communicate too so our time together was becoming more and more fun.
This was also when you had your Christening. A lot of people came to welcome you to the Christian world. You got lots of gifts and we used what we could already. But you are indeed my son because you most appreciated the books you received .
You just get more awesome by the day! By the fifth month, you were already reaching for your toes and even sucking them. You start to creep (early stages of crawling) and can not be left alone any more. You try to get to your toys and books. You turn over quite skillfully already that changing your diaper has become more and more of a challenge.
You are also a very emotional child. Another trait you got for me! You smile and laugh a lot, but you also cry a lot too. You seem to have a "look, but no touch" policy. You would have this very sweet smile for people but would cry in a minute if they carry you. You'd rather I or Yaya hold you while people play with you.
You've done quite a lot of things on your fifth month too. You took your first airplane ride, your first boat ride and celebrated your first Christmas and New Year.
What Nanay was most excited about is that I was finally able to take you swimming. The moment I got us tickets to go home to Davao, I was already imagining our day at the beach.
Well, you did not squeal with delight when I got you into the water. Could be because it was too cold. But at least you did not cry and you looked genuinely curious about the experience. What I liked best was that you knew how to paddle your foot. You did refuse to let go of me though. I didn't mind though. I did not have the courage to just throw you in the water and see if you would swim by your self. :P
And now you are six months! You will be starting your solids soon (tomorrow in fact). Your bag of tricks are getting bigger and bigger. And you entertain me in new ways on a daily basis.
Ah, dear Alon... what I wrote does no justice to show the world how amazing you are. But it does not really matter. What's important is that your Tatay and Nanay know this. And someday, I hope you find this out for yourself without letting it go to your head. And by finding out you are amazing, you go and make others realize they are too.
My dearest Alon, we are so blessed to have you as our son. I hope we do justice in being your parents. I hope we raise you well. Nanay and Tatay love you very much. I love you very much!
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